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As a gay furry cucked betamale with bitch tits & a hot goth bf, I have to say that I enjoy to listen to some heavy extreme black metal music, especially with racialist lyrics about the superiority of the huwhite man. Also as a gay furry I notice a lot of metal bands that have animals in the title because animals are cool and I like to do them a kiss on the forehead. Here are some of the bands with animals in the title of their names: -Goatmoon -Goatpenis -Goat Molestor Those are a few names I know of bands that like to write black metal music especially on the topic of fucking a lady goat in the ass or something (NOT gay) Those fucking goat demons are hot. I love the one on the Morbosidad cover with his dick out.

I think Grand Belial’s Key is alright but like have you noticed ever how all those NSBM dudes like get popped for arson or like OD and shit? Idk, “Kosherat” is kind of funny. I’m not really offended by Arghoslent’s racism I guess I just don’t like their riffs I think it’s Judas Priest rip off territory which you know he was gay right? Rob Halford? That the entire black metal aesthetic comes from gay leather daddy dudes. Leather jackets, leather pants, leather everything, spikes. Why do you think you look cool man, you look gay. Gay is good. Gay means happy. The coolest person in the world is probably like a gay black black metal musician cause the only thing that’s cool is struggling sometimes (Living Colour is my favorite Black Metal Band - Anal Cunt) You can be cool if you’re gay. Look gay, don’t be like afraid to do shit like that. I wore my Sulfuric Cautery do-rag to Maryland Deathfest with my cute Inkbunny t-shirt that had a cartoon rabbit on it and people liked it. I saw that Anal Cunt shirt. It’s all about variety man. I think The Dillinger Escape Plan is for Faggots is my favorite Anal Cunt song. People like that Skrewdriver record All Skrewed Up but I read that Feral House book The White Nationalist Skinhead Movement UK & USA 1978-1993 and the entire white power punk scene was just dumbass ugly British kids getting drunk, going to concerts with (probably) bad music and like beating each other up. Like don’t live that way. You’ll be 45 years old paunchy and think back fondly of when like you were an ugly dumb teen and punching each other cause that’s the only time you were ever happy with your shitty life. You think Varg is cool? He lives on a French farm with his like 25 year old wife and vlogs about tabletop board games. That’s pretty not brutal. Speaking of, why do you all you Nazi nitwits want like a fine Aryan babe and to work on a farm? You don’t even flush the toilet sometimes. You don’t know how to cook. You don’t read. You don’t even bathe. Stop getting other people to do shit for you and you can be a cool person. Yesterday I fell asleep on the bus, I woke up across the street from the sex shop and bought poppers, then I went to this house to see a room for rent and the dude was really nice. Like be nice to people.

If you do, you can live a goofy life like me. I work in a kitchen with Mexican chefs, for a Jewish boss, and I could make a joke about putting him in the oven and he would laugh and I would laugh because I do not have hate in my heart. Anyways, I’m glad that Blake Judd ripped all you Nuclear War Now! guys off cause what were you going to use that money for? Rent? Beer? Cause you hate your fucked up shitty life? Cause you fried your fucking brain cause you can’t handle all the shit coming at you online and you masturbate too much? Just like stop being worried about shit. There’s a reason black dudes have the concept of “the down low” sometimes you want to fuck your bro cause like you’re horny but you don’t want to live the gay lifestyle like that’s fine. Don’t even worry about it. It’s when you don’t trust someone, that’s how you get HIV man. That’s how you get AIDS. Anthony Fantano is what you get after you let Lester Bangs’ corpse fester for three months, that’s why he’s bald & fat. Also Solar Mass is really bad and that Diocletian dude seems real dumb in that new interview talking about “anti-kaos” bullshit yeah man the universe is chaotic don’t be afraid man embrace it. Also your record sounds like a photocopy of a Brazilian 80s black/thrash band IE very bad cause it’s fake and you’re not drunk off your ass on sugar liquor. Yeah Faust and Jon from Dissection are cool, killing gay people. Why do you hate gay people so much? Why do you think it’s cool to be mean to gay people? I thought gay dudes were like, sinners and shit. They’re going to hell. That’s metal. Being gay. Being like free and shit., Not writing shitty bad black/death that sounds like a vacuum. Might as well listen to harsh noise. Might as well listen to Vomir.

Not that any of this shit actually fucking matters. You fried your brain man for real, you’re fucking overloaded and your life sucks cause you don’t know which direction you want to go in. It doesn’t matter if I say that the only good 90s big Norwegian black metal shit is like the first three Ulver albums, first three Satyricon, first two Dimmu Borgir’s, uhhh Bak de Syv Fjell. Stop playing video games so much and if you do play them play them drunk cause then you’re having two kinds of fun, video games are a fucking bad drug to abuse. Better abuse alcohol, better abuse speed, you have more fun. How come a hit of acid is $30 and lasts 12 hours and video games cost $60 and last like…8. That’s funny. Here’s another funny thing - Gamergate, you spend your entire life getting angry at someone for criticizing one little thing and you fuck up your own life by being pissed off and petty. Stop that shit man. Stop breaking your own tv. Stop throwing your controller. I haven’t had a bad day at work in a month man. I woke up at 6:30 AM earlier this morning and cried watching the sun rise while I was doing chores. It was beautiful. It was spiritual. I’m getting back in touch with my dad after 10 years. Maryland Deathfest gave me the same exact feeling as being at a furry convention. That love of community man. It’s true. That’s why there are so many furries who listen to punk and metal music. Cause they recognize that. Also Death Metal Underground like it’s so funny you hate Mishima and say he’s not a real man cause he took it up the ass, he’s actually more of a man than you cause he died at 45 after leading his goofy gay far-right group up to the military outpost and then committed ritual suicide. Worked the fuck out. Had a six-pack. Left behind an impressive body of work. When you die Brent, what are you leaving behind? A bunch of shittily written blog posts about smoking a pipe and why you can’t get fucking laid. Oh here’s why, cause you eat garbage shit food and get mad all the time about shit that doesn’t fucking matter. Stop caring. Start living. Who gives a shit if you believe in paganism. You can just get drunk in a field for fun.

Intolitarian is the worst fucking noisecore band I ever heard and Antichrist Kramer is probably unfuckable in real life. How do you make bad noisecore? Make it racist I guess. Overproduced. Not that it matters to get fucked either. Stop worrying about sex all the time. Like the reason you can’t see that your life sucks is cause you love easy answers. Like do shit that’s hard for you. It makes you a better person. And if you’re fat like me you’re just fat. But I’m thinking I might go full vegan after next year. After I go to a furry convention with a dude I met on Twitter who says he wants to feed me pizza and rub my belly. Like you think that shit about improving your life is gay and shit but yeah it is gay, it’s like, you’ll be happy when you do it. Start caring about shit. Straight guys on acid get like half way there. You know. Matt & Trey had it half right with South Park. Caring about shit is gay. Yeah well caring about gay shit is gay. Don’t care if you don’t like some stupid band. Make fun of it but not in a way where you invest all your time & energy & effort in it. Like I think Tooling for Anus is a funny fucking song cause it is but like Tesco Vee is a cool dude and the Meatmen are funny. Like you can use racial humor or like gay humor if you’re a funny person. People can see through you. Why do you think you get so pissed on Twitter? Cause you’re bad at getting across your thoughts. Read more. Listen to music. Why don’t you like jazz music? Why don’t you like rap music? Is it because it moves too fast for you? Stop thinking. Just let it happen. Read. Don’t worry about understanding everything because you obviously don’t understand your own life if you’re this bad of a person. Don’t be mean man. What’s the nicest you’ve ever felt in your life? I probably feel better than that every day. Just be like a funny nice person and you’ll get laid if you want to. I met my boyfriend through the internet. I saw his furry art when he was 16 and later on around 2011 I talked to him about music online and we hit it off. We’ve been together since. We do cool stuff like go to concerts and hiking. Don’t get mad at shit you don’t understand. Just work towards making connections in your mind. Cause everything does have connections. You’ll feel really cool. Stop thinking shit is gross. You could endure everything. Your life would be changed for the better if you had to clean a bathroom even once. I spit up on myself earlier today cause I drank too much milk (I can’t help it, it looks like cum) and I was outside and unashamed cause like it happens to everyone sometimes. We all get sick. We hopefully all get better.

Just eat a salad sometime dude. My furry fuck buddy friend lost a lot of weight switching to salads. Which, good for him if he’s going to do that. Your brain wants to trust me. You know your life is not very good and I’m sorry. But that’s because you close yourself off from new experiences. I have a nice record collection I think. Why are so many cops shooting black people? Cause like their fucked up wife at a trailer park is too pissy when he gets home without pills he stole from the evidence locker. Stop giving a shit if people call you racist. Stop giving a shit entirely. You feel better. I promise. You can trust me. I’m from the internet.

Thursday, August 28th, 2025

well, second day at Fortrea. Luckily, thank god, i got in. They had to take my blood a second time, because the first time, it was too high in "LDH", which is not cholesterol, but some kind of byproduct of cellular damage. Maybe LDH is what people are talking about when they talk about "inflammation." The inflammation discourse has gotten out of hand. It's true: inflammation is sort of a woo-woo idea used by hucksters & weirdos. It is, however, real. But, it's imperfect: there's no absolute definition of what it is, what causees it, what relieves it, what effect it has. Its very vague. So, nautrally the contrepreneurs use that imprecision to bend it to their ends.

well, anyway: I'm really lucky I got admitted onto the study. Several people had to go home. One guy got dosed, but then threw up, & was let go.

yet another day of "there but for the grace of god go I"!

I been thinking here... or really, feeling. I've been feeling about something. so I get *such much money* from this study. & i get a loan for such much money from the bank. I trade in some stocks so I have cash ready in my Robinhood account for when the market crashes & I can buy discounted stocks.

I still don't have a job. I can't believre how hard it's been to get into the carpenter's union; all it takes is getting hired by a union contractor. I've applied to like 20+ of them, all said "no". One said "yes", but then I called when he said he watned me to come work for him, & I heard nothing. Why?

so, yes: I feels scared. Scared for my future. Scared for the future of the world. I want to buy a house, & then have a job that provides me health insurance & retirement. There doesn't seem any better way forward for the average person. Unless I start my own business or go into some other field, it looks like carpenter's union is the move.

yes, I could do something else for work. But, that would require switching. & I barely have the energy or interest to pursue what I'm already settled on. It's not like a bunch of energy & forward-motion is going to magically fill me & I can become a lawyer working at a high-priced firm or something.

it seems like most people who get settled into a solid career / industry do so in their 20s. I didn't do that in my 20s. Yes, sometimes it feels too late. But, I have been feeling like I was "too late" & like I "missed out" ever since I posted about it online at the age of 17.

sunday august 24th

many of my friends are unhealthy and eat bad food & i know they have problems shitting because they dont take care of their health. and its like: what is your gut biome gonna be like when you're 40? 50?

gotta start sooner than later, my friends. you're not gonna be young forever... your body is dying. we are at this very moment fading away into nothing

friday august 22 2025

1:58pm

tuesday, august 19th 2025

ADHD meds make it easier to do tasks. but, they don't necessarily make you do tasks that actually fit into a larger purpose or goal... you still have to focus on the goal. I guess one of the tasks that it can help you do is to sit down & make your plans & break it down into smaller steps (little tasks) to achieve the goal. like anything, ADHD meds aren't the be-all end-all. just a tool in a toolbox of many other tools.

12:23

my IQ is high enough that I know giving a shit about IQ is for morons

1:59pm

all those characters living in New York City in the musical "Rent" would all be completely unable to live in NYC at this point, priced out of buildings & neighborhoods filled with TikTok stars & Hiosters & whatever else kind of annoying & weird person goes to NYC to have some sort of weird, creepy career surrounded by other weird creepy creeps

monday august 19th 2025

yeah i wish the world was ruled by luciferians to be honest haha. just another day of not doing much and feeling bad. im sick today also. i submitted the insurance claim to my own insurance. not sure when the police department will give me the reprot so i can make a claim against the dumb girl's insurance...

11:17pm

Lemon pepper? More like lemon salt! Am I right?

sunday august 18th 2025

i woke up around 10:00am. she wa som the couch watching her iphone stuff. on the screen. ee doing ok and vibing slowly bohemian layabout style. i noticed that one of the notebooks i found out by the dumoster has the name of a girl my buddy Max had a crush on in college. i guess she's still getting her graduate degree at the university...

5:14pm

boomers wilin out on fb. I'm writing this through dictation directly into the Neocitirs terminal. h ha ha, this is just a trend! I'm really scared. I'm scared and I'm feeling lonely. I feel like I wanna cry. I don't know if I'm looking forward to anything. I wanna own a house. I want my girlfriend's mental health to improve. I want her to be OK. I want her to be happy. I want her to understand the world. All my friends? Mo most of them are kind of weird… The world feels so petty and small. Petty. That's the only word I can think to describe it. "It is a tail told by an idiot full of sound and fury signifying nothing." Just like Macbeth said ha ha.

7:26pm

Israel is a joke. its the most ridiculously fascist regime i have ever seen or can rven can conceive of occurring in this current world. if you support it, i know you would have been one of the Germans who supported the 3rd Reichstag. No - I dont need to lesrn more or understand anything further. there is this ridiculous notion that nuance is always gold. no. sometimes, the truth is so obvious, that to deny it is tantamount to sin.

12:37am

friday, August 15th, 2025

we woke up early. i got all the stuff from my room moved out into the living room for the painter so my room would be ready to paint. same with kitchen. worked out at gym. came home & straight jerked it for two hours. went to couples therapy. we got sushi after. came home and we sang songs for like an hour in the empty bedroom with its eeries but fun exho. brought the bed back in and now thats where i lie. sleepy.