### friday march 20 2026 Watched streams of Clavicular. Looksmaxxing. Mogging. Cortisol-spiking. There are poems written about this man. Don’t rely on me to tell you what that means. All these words. So little meaning. I look up pictures of naked women on my “phone”. There she is. There IT is. Some of the angles remind me of lovers past. The reality-remembered takes me out of the masturbation moment, & into what it’s really like: nothing like masturbation; a struggle, an episode of my mind focused on anything except the present moment. Nothing magickal? It’s all to get laid. Looksmaxxing. Entrepreneurship. PUA most obviously. The getting laid is dreamed to be magickal. I guess sometimes it is — I can’t remember when or why. I want to have a conversation where I believe the things I say… ras posers. Raw powers. I don’t feel anything when I say these words. I guess in Heaven one “uses” words & doesn’t merely “say” them. That’s why when the Lamb had opened up the seventh seal there was silence in Heaven about the space of half an hour. What i mean is that i haven’t had a good conversation in a while. A “good” conversation is one where people like me, & they wanna know about me, & I say dumb shit & they think it’s funny & they think I’m cool. Many bonus points if the “someone” is an attractive woman. The validation leading up to sex is kind of more fun than the sex itself (recall that my mind goes elsewhere, usually). I don’t know when I’ve had a “genuine” conversation. I want to be genuine & also have women be attracted to me. But even Clav & Mystery & everyone on earth crash n burn sometimes. Majority, really; that’s probably one of the best things to learn from them. “Though I have wept & fasted Wept & prayed” When I did the tarot readings on State Street…? Yeah. I guess that was cool. Uhhh… I mean, was I in control of those interactions? Did I frame-mog people (frame in the classic NLP sense). What did I learn? Well, among other things, that you can just compliment women on their appearances & it’s no big deal. Very paradigm-shifting moment for a white boy like me. So… what’s next? Especially for a guy who doesn’t even like having “hook up” sex… have I rubbed up against the limits of reality? I can even tell people what to do now. What’s the goal? ### tuesday march 17th 2026 ads [ Communication Patterns and Assumptions of Differing Cultural Groups in the United States](https://www.lpi.usra.edu/education/lpsc_wksp_2007/resources/elliott.pdf) ### thursday march 12, 2026 all the tv ads are so similar now. like thuma beds. all looks like the same shit made in like some cheap 1-month free 3d editor. they all look like the websites for the products will be nothing but drop shipping of temu quality products. ### wednesday march 4 2026 [img](https://i.postimg.cc/mZYRxdC5/IMG-4286.jpg) ### friday february 20th 2026 this is what the arnold schwarzenegger email said today and i think some of it is good especially about starting rather than planning too much... and the dangers of making your happiness contingent on other ggoals and things... does this shit work when it's on multiple lines??? can it be combined???? February 20, 2026 | Read Online The Average Person Loses 9 Years of Healthy Life Before They Die. Here's How To Get The Time Back. A World Health Organization analysis of 183 countries found the global healthspan gap is growing, giving people fewer quality years at the end of life. Three main causes are responsible for the majority of lost time. Welcome to the positive corner of the internet. We’re here to make your life healthier, happier, and less stressful. At the bottom of each email, we explain our editorial process, stance on AI, and partnership standards. If you were forwarded this message, you can get the free daily email here. Today’s Health Upgrade The gap between living long and living well A convenient way to lower cholesterol Weekly wisdom Your plan is the problem Longevity Number You Won’t Forget: 12 Years The Gap Between Living Long and Living Well We spend a lot of time talking about living longer. But what if the real problem isn't how many years you get, it's how many of those years you actually feel good? Researchers found that Americans spend an average of 12 years living with disease or disability before they die, which is the largest gap between healthspan and lifespan of any country in the world. The study analyzed World Health Organization data from 183 countries spanning two decades. Researchers compared total life expectancy against health-adjusted life expectancy, essentially, years lived free of significant disease or disability. Globally, that gap averaged more than 9 years. That means the average person loses nearly a decade of quality life before passing away. The U.S. came in dead last at 12.4 years. Women fared worse, with a 13.7-year gap compared to roughly 11 years for men. Three categories stood out in the U.S.: mental health conditions, substance use disorders, and musculoskeletal diseases like chronic pain and arthritis. This study didn't test interventions, so no one can say "do X and close the gap." But it points directly at the things worth prioritizing. 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Just make sure you visit piquelife.com/pumpclub to activate it. Mindset Weekly Wisdom ❝ Desire is a contract you make with yourself to be unhappy until you get what you want. Naval Ravikant This isn't an argument against wanting things. It's a diagnosis of how most of us want them as a condition. Almost like a ransom note we write to our own satisfaction. I'll feel good about myself once “_______” is true. Once the scale hits the number. Once I make a certain amount of money. Once I build up enough confidence. You probably don't say it out loud. But the contract is there. And you signed it. What that contract does is strip all the meaning out of the middle. And the middle is where you actually live. Here's what it looks like in practice: You start training. You're showing up, moving your body, sleeping better, feeling stronger. By any honest measure, things are working. But because you haven't hit the goal yet, none of it registers. The progress is invisible. The discipline is invisible. The better mornings don't count. You've chosen a finish line as your only unit of success, which means every day before you cross it is, by definition, not enough. No wonder it's hard to stay consistent. You're doing real work and recording it as nothing. The research on this is worth knowing. Studies on hedonic adaptation show that outcomes deliver far less satisfaction than we predict, and that the emotional payoff of reaching a goal fades faster than expected. Meanwhile, people who find meaning during the process report higher well-being, better adherence, and more durable results. The process isn't the consolation prize. It's the main event. Turn Wisdom Into Action This week, try one thing: End each day by writing down one thing you did, not one thing you’re still waiting to achieve. Not "I'm 12 pounds from my goal." Instead: "I walked for 20 minutes." "I chose the meal that made me feel better." "I showed up when I didn't want to." Actions. Evidence. Proof that the middle matters. The contract you want to make with yourself isn't I'll be happy when. It's I'm going to notice what's true right now. That's not lowering the bar. That's actually clearing it every single day. And when you do that, it becomes easier to keep going. Because if you don’t quit, inevitably, you’ll end up in a much better place than where you started. Better Questions, Better Solutions Why Your Plan Is the Problem The Old Question: How do I create the perfect plan before I start? The Better Question: What's the fastest way to test this idea in the next 24 hours? Somewhere along the way, preparation got confused with progress. They feel identical, and that's the problem. The old question feels responsible. Thoughtful, even. But underneath it lies the belief that, if you think long enough, you can eliminate the risk of being wrong. You can't. And every hour spent refining a plan that's never been tested is an hour spent building confidence in fiction. That shift isn't just semantic. Taking action, even with imperfect plans, moves you from designing to discovering, and those two things produce completely different information. Plans are built from assumptions. Tests are built from reality. No matter how detailed your roadmap, the moment it meets actual conditions — your schedule, your energy, your environment — it will need to change. The people who make consistent progress aren't better planners. They're faster learners. Research on decision-making supports this. People consistently overestimate how much pre-planning improves outcomes, while underestimating how quickly real-world feedback accelerates learning. Moving creates data. Waiting creates anxiety. Perfectionism doesn't slow you down because it raises your standards. It slows you down because it disguises fear as preparation. Before your next planning session, add one rule: no plan survives longer than 24 hours without a test. It doesn't need to be the full version. A smaller, messier attempt will teach you more than another hour of refinement ever could. Clarity isn't something you plan your way into. It's something you act your way into. And that’s it for this week. Thanks for being a part of the positive corner of the internet. Remember, you have endless opportunities to get better every day. Don’t overthink, do something, and repeat. Have a fantastic weekend! ### ash wednesday February 18, 2026 i saw this notebook at goodwill today: [img](https://i.postimg.cc/ncv2ysWs/IMG-3844.jpg) [img](https://i.postimg.cc/KvyrDG8d/IMG-3843.jpg) sat feb 14 26 [img](https://i.postimg.cc/gJqQZnFj/1770991902429-17789665666493.jpg) [img](https://i.postimg.cc/L67Chzgm/IMG-3737.jpg) previous entry idk what date: it used to be: i thought working at an Italian restaurant and like there's shitty old srt on the wall $ pictures of morons like fellini who are serial phillanderers and misogynist Italian asmerican Franco fascists; you pour wine at the end of shift in the back, & think "wow - it's i am a dud eaorking in nyc's little italy in the 1950s! haha" as you get ready ti sweep the floor? and maybr you hit on the hodtess and like, eventually dhe comes home with you & you touch her nice big boobies, & then the next day you still have to get back to the kitchen... but? it's not realky like that: it's more like: you're getting older and the alcohol is taking its toll, & you have bsrely any employable skills. i'm sorry to go on yet another rant abiut the pratfalls of "partying" too much too far into your adulthood, but i guess everything really just follows the same things , the same patterns. and no the sokution is not to become a weird atwitter facist who wants a wife with bare feet — you are a foot fetishist! do you think you couldn't just ask thr Italian restaurant hostess with the nice boobs to let you ... do WHATEVER to ehr feet next time dhe's over!?!? HELLLOOOOO??? earth to HOU! ### Thursday, January 22, 2026 Insight I feel like no one is cool or special. Like no one has ever really achieved anything of moment. Like most of what i used to think mattered actually is just illusion. I don't see what there is to do in this life, besides things like: wake up, meditate, drinking coffee, walk around, make noises with my throat to vibrate people's ear drums, have people vibrate my ear drum, make music, exercise, eat food, clean up, travel a little, do new things I'm afraid of, make money I just don't really see any of this as amounting to anything. I used to think being in a relationship was the "right thing", & unconsciously, I believed it was the "solution to all my problems". Now, i think relationship is fine, but i know (& I mean that I UNDERSTAND, on an intuitive level, I *SEE* it, I grok it) how relationships are just yet another thing that will provide for someone of my needs, temporarily, & not for others; in the same way that an excellent Italian meal will satisfy my hunger, but it's not like I'm going to never have to eat again & the thing is, that I really am fine with all this for the most part. I almost can't imagine why I would want anything other than to drink coffee & walk around every day until I die. Like, I don't really find it depressing that I'm just going to do the same stuff every day; the meaning of it is the stuff itself I guess I'm just a little surprised by it all. Surprised there's no "be-all end-all". There's no "answer". I thought I was always looking for the answer. But the answer is me. Only I am able to manage my needs & utilize my resources (such as other people) to provide for my needs moment-to-moment... There are no absolute states of being. At least not in this reality Thank you for listening ### Monday January 19th 2026 I am sexy. what's it get me? Sex? ### sunday january 18th, 2026 5:43pm [img](https://i.postimg.cc/d0RhzZWG/IMG-3063.jpg) ###two 2:17AM J January 18, 2026 A.D. D ###sjn jan 18 2026ad ### pk i dont lnow'z shame wounds if loce was conditjonsl. god i just want a willing receptacle. i could fake all my loney a at higher a private militia, and come to the house of some famous person… And forced them to listen to me talk… And no one could call the cops,; and no one could tell me what to do!… And I could just say whatever I want… And it wouldn't even cost me that much money… All I would need would be enough money to pay off my private militia…! # ##To # # #To11 AM IRememberYou…! IRememberYou…YouInYourSweetCharmGown…You"We'dLikeToTakeSomeFilesForYourImmigrationOnTheWhile" "Here'sToYouMrs.RobinsonJesus loves you more than you will know… Whoa whoa whoa!" " God bless you true, Mrs. Robinson! Heaven holds a place for those who pray! "Yay yay yay!" "Yay yay yay!" We'd like to have some information about you for our files… Parentheses BOLD) 2:1 3 AM parentheses BOLD) I love you! … I walked down a block down to the pizza shop and we got a couple of drinks so you know what I mean? Now, I'm back home eating my chicken and rice and I'm grateful for it… You know when I'm under the influence…? I feel like everything is so important… Like there's so much meaning…!… But all I wanna do is lay down and jack off looking at some pictures of pretty beautiful, skinny, a cylinder, gorgeous, model models with cylinder bodies and some disproportionally, big breasts and some. BEAUTIFUL and FACES… The face ha ha ha The faces of beautiful French, Parisian models I want EJACULATE, and. IN their pussy! There ###saturday January 18t7th 2026ad i dont remmeber what i was gonna say oh wow hot dark-haired beauty with teh gladses... pleaze gimme fat sweet toght wet... oh yeah you lnow what j need 12:52am "meTAL" - an Indian Male-bodied individual holy shot i'm so funny and smart o h my GOD ### Thursday January 15th, 2026ad 5:25pm [bold]my friend wrote this:[/bold] WW2 ends, we realize how much money we made... need a new enemy, as the world just changed and no longer favors territorial disputes on that level. So we decide we must manufacture a new war to profit from. Something "justifiable" in the eyes of the world and citizens. We decide on Communism to be this spectre we must righteously stamp out. The cold war ensues, resulting in multiple proxy wars. Eventually, especially following Vietnam, the people no longer accept wars on the premise of ideological difference. But, we still wanted to make money... sooooo We must manufacture yet another war to profit from. We need a new enemy. One that we can make more of, one that can be manipulated, one that can be dehumanized easier to the people... So, we claim some folks aren't JUST communists, but oh no, theyre totally terrorist communist fascist dictators too! Conveniently, a "terror attack" on US soil takes place, followed by the Global War on Terror. Now, we've manufactured the groups which we fight, and create the situations in which these groups will constantly grow. We've dehumanized them and the citizens at their mercy, generalizing every one of them, children included, as "terrorists". We even outright lied and said "they have WMDs and intend to use them on us!!!" Turns out those WMDs didnt exist, and we just created a massive power vacuum for no reason. No repercussions. Just a shrug, and continued conflict against the groups WE created and funded to keep the war profit machine going. People stopped supporting these wars too, eventually. Thats where our little colonial projects come into play. If the people wont accept our military fighting these wars, then we'll have a puppet state carry on the effort for us! Now, they have you convinced that every little child in Palestine "would have grown up to be a terrorist anyway." Most of the people on my timeline happen to be white. Let me ask, if someone shot your child to death in front of you, and had the gaul to look at you after and say, "They would have grown up a racist anyway." How exactly would you feel in that moment? How would you react? What about when someone else hears about your child and says, "Well it doesn't really affect me, so" Its the same shit over and over. This cycle will not end until western colonialism is stomped out like an invasive bug. This country and others like it, are the sole reason for the world being the way it is. They have total control over most of the planet, after all. Who else is to blame other than the people making these decisions? ### Wednesday January 14th, 2026 "money is just how poor people conceptualize power" ### Sunday, January 4th, 2026 9:00pm Voldonis one of tje very few EXTREMELY sexual male videogame characters 1:00pm Two parter about MBTI I commented on a post in the Disco Elysium subreddit. ### FIRST PART I saw a guide online that typed each of the skills… i’m guessing Electrochemistry was ESFP because what else could it be? I remember most of the yellow skills were ISTP, which makes sense I guess… Empathy = ENFJ Inland Empire = INFP Logic = INTP Rhetoric = ENTP I don’t remember the others… i don’t even remember where I saw this list… I think my girlfriend was actually reading it off to me & I was guessing which were which. I have gained far too much useful insight about other people & myself to completely dismiss MBTI as mere twaddle. I wouldn’t exactly call it “scientific” tho. It’s just an attempt to describe how people tend to prefer perceiving & judging information. A big issue id that people’s preferences tend to be more on a bell curve than a binary; how many people are “100%” introverted or extraverted? Basically none… but, the Big5 still uses that criteria & it’s the only scientifically accepted personality model i know of, or the most popular one at least. One of the main critiques of MBTI is it unfalsifiable & vague. But, have you seen the other, scientifically-accepted personality system, the Big 5? Largely has the same issues, plus being totally circular in its reasoning. And how much of psychology is actually falsifiable at the end of the day? It’s pretty easy to dismiss it as BS because 99% of the stuff about it online is like, Buzzfeed quiz-level of depth, & that’s all that most people will ever look into it. I’m sure a bunch of people here wanna argue with me about it but the truth is I’m not really interested in that ‘cause I think discussions should involve people being open to change & i’m pretty set in my opinion already. ### SECOND PART Yeah the “hate boner” i think stems in large part from: 1. People find that being contrarian & aligning with “science” makes them feel smart or avoid being manipulated (which is fair)… & let’s be honest - a lot of DE fans are of the above-average-IQ, “skeptic” mindset so they will fall into this. 2. MBTI *is* an imperfect system & it’s in some ways “safer” to dismiss outright rather than engage with the nuances (this is sort of the first point) 3. There is a growing distrust of institutions such as “science” & “academia”; & a continuing effort to trust pseudo-sciences instead (this took off bigly after Covid, for instance). So, probably a lot of people have their “kill switch” engaged whenever “alternative” theories pop up that don’t emerge from the science/academia institutions, because these ways of thinking are often what leads to things like taking ivermectin for Covid or injecting yourself with bleach. And since the majority of Disco Elysium fans are left-leaning, & the trust of institutions is being upheld these days most by left-leaning people (& the “alternative” / pseudo-science perspective is *often* upheld by more right-leaning people) it makes sense that this subreddit in particular has a major hâte-bóneur for MBTI. 4. 99.9% of MBTI info online is shit like a 5-question survey that tells you which Disney princess you are; i: very detached from the actual theories of Jung that the system was originally based on. ### Friday January 1 2026 [img](https://i.postimg.cc/nLcvrDR2/IMG-2420.jpg) ### Wednesday december 31 2025 [img](https://i.postimg.cc/5tTrnbXn/IMG-2390.jpg) ### Sunday December 21 2025 [img](https://i.postimg.cc/05V3JWTg/IMG-1998.jpg) ### Tuesday, December 9 I feel lonely. I buy a ten pack of jagermeister at Walmart to give to homeless people, & some lottery tickets, some cigarettes… driving out of the Walmart parking lot, there’s a homeless guy standing on the median strip. I hold up a four pack of Colt 45 that I got for his class of person. He comes up to my car, says “you’re giving me all of em?” “Yeah”, I said. He’s very grateful. He said he sits on a dumpster “over there” (pointing to the Wendy’s across the street) every night & gets drunk. Why wouldn’t I help him? Who am I to judge? There but for the grace of God go I. The ground is dry & dusty, a bunch of little pebbles held together by glue or something. The smell & sound of leather seats in my car echo slightly thru to the rear hatch. I walk into my house & turn the light on. It’s a cold winter night. Will I sit on State Street with the Crust Punks in the summer time & drink a 40? That’s not really what I would call a career. Pretty girls from the college & the small towns nearby walk up and down the street. I want to date them. But it seems like people don’t talk to each other. I’m confident enough to talk to them anyway. Maybe one in ten will like me and I can ask her out. And maybe one in a handful of those will go out with me. And sometimes I’ll hang out with her at my house & we’ll have sex. I think that’s what I want; and sometimes I’m right. It’s not a “be all end all”, as Macbeth said, before murdering an elderly man. I’ve had conversations sitting in a parked car with beautiful women. It’s hard to imagine how exciting it will be when I get the cigarette cellophane rocket ship trick to work. Will it be more exciting than a pretty lady? For a moment, yes, probably. It’s hard to think of anything that feels more “right” than sitting under a bridge, getting high of a 40 of malt liquor. It doesn’t always work, but when it does? Whoa. Women. Sex. Alcohol. Loneliness. I wouldn’t mind a job in the morning that I go home from in the afternoon. One that pays enough for me to pay mortgage. And health insurance, & retirement. “Just give the CEO a firm handshake.” Just one more babe & I can be happy. I wish I didn’t eat so much. So unhealthy. I wish I were skinny again. ### Sunday dec 7 The marines buying toys for tots at the store, on the TV news show. The people are poorly-lit in fluorescent lights… an example of the not-happening-ness of common, “daily” life. (This is not attempting to be a profound or unique observation, by the way) Sometimes, people in cars crash into each other, at high speeds. They might die. They’re soft, precious bodies are throttled & cut & torn & broken, until they have no life in them. They are “dead”. You might also die, if you’re lucky, one day when you’re old; your body will “stop working”. I guess that can happen slowly, or if you’re lucky, fast. I don’t know at what point you are “dead”. Nurses and doctors (mostly nurses) see this all the time. They are familiar with death. Most nurses also do not think too abstractly about things like death or the future. That’s probably for the better, I guess. Because I guess death is mundane. It is this petty little thing that happens; it’s as profound as a Walmart parking lot. Sometimes Walmart parking lots can be profound. but its not the thing itself thats profound, its the experience of the thing as it is in the moment; meditation helps with that. I guess what I’m saying: I grew up in this country where most people’s main exposure to how reality works comes thru the TV; I guess these days it comes thru a phone screen more often than not. Either way - it’s mediated by Hollywood & such. So when you grew up on explosions and car crashes, & stories with beginning, middle, & end, real reality seems a bit suspiciously bland. You mean there’s not some sort of “moment” my life is building towards? Even the final moment of my life (my death) will be quiet; and if I have the luck & privilege to be surrounded by anyone at that moment, they will probably not be hot & sexy ### Thursday December 4th, 2025 Capitalism extracts value from everything - society, humans, relationships. It can’t not do this. Stop it with this economics101 stuff you say to justify this. Any hustler on the street knows this scam. ### Tuesday December 2, 2025 yes enshittificarion Yanis Varoufakis Technofeudalism moot probability eliezer yidkowsky private mind self realization anything that canr go on forbesr ### wednesday november 26 2025 [article about netlix i guess](https://www.nplusonemag.com/issue-49/essays/casual-viewing/) ### 1:34pm Our assets, which art in markets, hallowed be thy interest, give us this day our daily dividends, & forgive us our cost basis, as we invest those losses that have accrued against us, & lead us not into debt, but deliver us from taxes ### Sunday November 22 2025 [img](https://i.postimg.cc/KcLnRyLF/more-shee.jpg) [img](https://i.postimg.cc/MKqjHfqj/aspects.jpg) I cannot begin to explain how harddd this Phenomonology shit goes 😳 This is insane. I read this & it’s like the “airhorn_sound_effect.wav” is playing full blast, bass-boosted… Kanye West’s “Power” should be playing when he makes these claims… this is fucking wild… holy shittttttt ### fhursday november 19th /025 you ever have a chair in your house? like, not a la zer boiiiii, but just a chair, but its oike kind of confortabke? a chair designed for sitting, not for doing work. a chair kind if like this: [img](https://i.postimg.cc/rsczD7XD/A600034758-2.jpg) just sitting in a chair like that in your house, not doing anything, goes so harddddd...9 what a joy & a priviledge... ### tuesday november 18th???? 2025 [img](https://i.postimg.cc/xdzdt99q/The-most-powerful-way-to-improve.jpg) ### sunday november 16th 2025a.d. is this song about the holocaust??? being loaded onto a boxcar to the concentration camps? is the "man" Josef Mangele? [img](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tPgf_btTFlc&list=RDtPgf_btTFlc&start_radio=1) ### friday november 14 2025 goth culture is a psyop by the CIA to cluster autistic white people together for manipulation ### monday november 10 2025 I hate people who say like “oh the etymology of that word is ‘x’, in Greek it translates to ‘xxx’”. It’s like; yeah…I know… that’s literally exactly what it means in English ### Thursday November 6th 2025 [img](https://i.postimg.cc/y8w1J206/TRUMP-S-PLAN-OF-NORMALIZATION.jpg) ### Wednesday October 29th 2025 I am tired of stupid gross restaurants like Applebee's showing me commercials and trying to get me to buy their deep fried sysco food. I am tired of that food. I guess the $1 margaritas are kind of cool...do they even have those anymore? yeah I know it's an annual thing [img](https://i.postimg.cc/4N7jKyP9/20251029-222134.jpg) ### Sunday October [img](https://i.postimg.cc/4N9FfM47/I-m-Totally-We-a.jpg) ### Tuesday, October 22, 2025 11:58pm All these people I used to look up to. And not even look up to, more like: some people made me feel safe. I remember once a bunch of shit was happening in my life, bad shit, & then I saw Lincoln smoking a cigarette with Mike on State St, & I felt better. It was late at night - or what I called “late” at the time, so maybe like 10 or 11. Mike was sitting on a bench, & Lincoln was standing up, both smoking. Now, I gossip with John about the restaurant people we know from around town. Lucien broke his heel & can’t afford to go to the doctor & hasn’t called in for a week. (was drunk and high on shrooms and jumped off a balcony. how high? i dont know, probably just like 6feet)He’s just MIA. Is he ok? I hope so. Can I do something? Find his address? Go there? Maybe… It’s a real American horror story: you’re 21 & you hurt yourself & can’t go to the doctor. Maybe he has permanent damage now because of the delay in seeing a professional. Why don’t we all have basic healthcare in America that won’t bankrupt you? This is simple & easy & would be cheaper. Europeans do it. Are you telling me we aren’t better than Europeans??? Those people are existentially frightened by tap water - they can’t believe it’s clean & we drink it (rare American health W). A European’s head explodes when they see water with ice in it - doesn’t exist where they come from; from France to Estonia, water is served lukewarm in some stupid fucking wine bottle or some shit that they bring to your table. Honestly, Americans are the only ones who carry around big jugs & suck down water all day. And you’re telling me we are BEHIND these dehydrated Europeans on having healthcare,???? What???? It’s so simple & easy bro! Stop saying it’s complicated! I know you’re lying! That’s like a guy trying to sell me magic beans; don’t insult me by denying what’s right in front of my face ### 11:30am The true cool guys in town are not hanging out at the club picking up chicks, theyre at the clinic getting STD tested ### 12:12pm [img](https://i.postimg.cc/8kJVvZPN/NEW-UFO-CAUSE.jpg) ### Monday, October 20th a lot of these victories people are celebratinf are pyrrich bictories ## Sunday, October 19th, 2025 [img](https://i.postimg.cc/RZJBXr7t/IMG-4267.jpg) 8:24pm comment by @LynHooper on this video: [img](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4I232fZ6WIk&t=1085s) Look - Ive known grimes AKA Claire since 2006. Her best friend at the time, who totally modelled himself after Andy Warhol in a super cringe way, lived in the same apartment building as I did. I wont name him because its not necessary and he was actually a decent guy. My roommates and I frequently chilled at the friend's apartment and Claire was a regular visitor. We were all first year university students - my roommates and I were all fine arts students at Concordia, and Claire was a student of Russian Studies at McGill University. For anyone who doesnt know - these schools have very opposing identities and histories. Concordia was considered a more radical and alternative institution - the student body had a long history of political activism and boundary pushing, and rejected the conventional elitism that defined the world of academia. McGill, on the other hand, had a much more Ivy League vibe to it, and a student body that was mostly mid to upper class caucasian. Anyway... In 2005, in Montreal, this alternative, more "punk" concept of higher education was sexier and more fashionable. Maybe it was an act of rebellion against her privileged background, or maybe its not even that deep and she was just following the trends at the time, but Claire seemed hellbent on defining herself as the ultimate art chick - strange, quirky, mystifying, aloof. She was ALWAYS a fixture at the parties, venues and art shows put on and attended by Concordia students. She was like an art student groupie or fan girl or something. At the time I was too young to see the desperation and superficiality that informed Claires ever-evolving public persona. I was intrigued and envious of her. She was like the ideal, enigmatic art chick. Except she was a tourist. She wasnt an art student at all. In my opinion, all Grimes has ever been about is attracting attention. Her ego dominated her then, when she was performing her best rendition of an art student without depth or substance, and it dominates her to this day. She is still manufacturing this persona of being a kind of mystifying creative genius. Shes just a wealthy spoiled white chick desperate to be praised for her uniqueness and her difference. Its getting old. Actually it got old a while ago. Youre not that interesting, Grimes. Get over yourself. In my opinion Grimes got lucky with visions.... That album (along with a bizarre and quirky origin story, of course) convinced people she was some kind of musical visionary. A rare, real talent. And I still like that album to this day. She tapped into something with that album that truly encapsulated a cultural moment in time, in the sounds and aesthetics. But the truth of the matter is, Grimes is a tourist. She always has been. If anything, she could be justifiably admired as a great observer of popular culture. Or a good performance artist. But there's not a lot of substance there. That's the real Grimes, and that's my honest opinion. my personal take on @LynHooper that's all good points. very true. yes.
But, it's hard to say that "authentically being something" matters when you nonetheless create something good & brilliant, like Visions. 
Every artist I've ever seen who was successful was kind of a phoney. There's no "real" artist. No "real" or "authentic" anything.
"fake it 'til you make it", they/them say.
"Be careful what you pretend to be, because that's what you are" - Kierkegaard or someother guy Naimode
@Kailikapu
12 years ago the voice of God visited itself upon a stinky crazy Canadian elf girl and blessed her with the gift of genius for just a moment, at the cost of her life.
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Grimes’ album “Visions” turns 12 years old today.
https://x.com/Kailikapu/status/1752886448678965478 7:48pm That's cool, but we still need Socialism in America ___________________________ THIS PREVIOUS POST IS SATIRE !!!! 🤣 HAHA!!! COMEDY !!! HAHA GOOD ONE! BUT ACTUALLY "SOCIALISM" = BAD I AM PRO-AMERICA PRO-CAPITALISM IT'S SO GREAT I LOVE THE GOVERNMENT HEHE ## Saturday October 18th, 2018 ## 12:21pm [one of the best Mullen bits. like therapy if you were exposed to the Roganverse](https://youtu.be/XXlUCuCkGV0?si=vZJUGxLs0sXJDgEf) ## 12:19pm [img](https://i.postimg.cc/V0zPPnYm/IMG-4231.jpg "drawings my mom made in her small notebook when she was taking a drawing class") [img](https://i.postimg.cc/476R0BRt/IMG-4232.jpg) [img](https://i.postimg.cc/CnwppkFh/IMG-4233.jpg) [img](https://i.postimg.cc/rRq22x8F/IMG-4234.jpg) [img](https://i.postimg.cc/p5PMMz2V/IMG-4235.jpg) ## 11:03am There are little things in life that we do repetitively, daily, weekly, whatever; the unending cycle of doing little tasks. Here are some of them: - brushing your teeth - Getting out of bed - Making food - Cleaning the dishes - Putting away the dishes - Washing laundry - Folding laundry - Putting away laundry - Wash towels - Wash bedding - Get cleaning supplies - Take stuff to the donation place - Get batteries - Find your keys - Charge phone - Update video game - Jog - Lift weights - Put on gym clothes - Take shower - schedule doctor’s appointment - make budget - Go out for a smoke - Settle your bar tab - Ask your parents for money - Write a letter to your landlord - Fill out the “civil restitution” form - Do your taxes - File your taxes - Correct your taxes - perform the ritual - Draw the card - Make your bed - take your meds - Get your transfusion - Write your will - Have sex - Cry - read book - Try to stop watching YouTube - Update website - Submit job application - Close the deal - Start the fire - Stoke the flames - Roast the s’mores - go to physical therapy - Go to psychological therapy - restock the toilet paper - Sweep the floor - apologize - get gas - Get oil change - Replace tail light - practice musical instrument - meditate - buy plane tickets - File a complaint - Help somebody out - Get a cigar - Smoke a cigar - Make a plan for not drinking too much Repetitive tasks are associated with the intraverted sensing (Si) function in the MBTI / Myers Briggs system. “Like a radar that can only detect a few types of ships, but very precisely” Se is like a radar that can detect lots of things, but less precisely. I guess that’s part of why SJs tend to do the best in society: they often follow rules & repetitively go with what’s familiar. I underestimated the value of familiarity most of my life. But, many business exist solely because they provide consistency & familiarity. Like for the woman who drive cross country & only went to McDonald’s because it was the only place where she knew exactly what she would be getting. That be almost sinful for me, but for those love consistency it fits the bill. Nothing wrong with that. I wish I were more like that. I want to act with more consistency. I guess part of it is that I need to just “go with what I know.”

10:08pm tomorrow, the date will be ABOVE the text instead of below it. i just added some new HTML to make it easier to update right in Neocities terminal, raw, & it's above the date text. dont feel like changing it right now so, thanks for your patience, to the one lonely man in Norway who actually reads this dailyo 10:06pm wow man i'm fucking sad and depressed today. maybe not just cause of sort of losing the big money... havent eaten all day. finding it difficult :( god have mercy on my soul essy xome easy go makes jack a dull boy jacking off into the styrofoam cup "can you cum in this please?"